I feel alone, and company is all but naught. I will fill this hollowed feeling with nonchalant words, art and false dreams.
I can’t stop thinking about what my mom said to me the other day..she firmly believes I have ptsd from a lot of the shit in my childhood. I don’t really know what that would be like..? I will have to look into it I guess. Not going to discuss exactly what may or may not be the possible cause of it but yeah. I’ve had one of my other therapists mention it before but idk. I really don’t think I do though.
Let me carve your name onto my moss covered bones. Flowers grow where my lungs should be, and my heart? The embers of an hallowed log.
I was doing a tarot reading on myself and the question I asked I wasn’t really getting any correct answers, however when I went to put the deck away this card fell on the ground upside down and I’m kind of shocked when I looked it up on what it meant.
A period of sadness or unhappiness passes and there will be happiness for you in the future. You will meet up with old friends and make some new ones.”
Luna and I were watchin’ Tarzan last night, also i want to get her that cute little collar and custom tag ;v; it’d be too cute
Skip the first stone, watch it flutter on top of the sun-kissed lake, then sinking down below;away from your vision.
Keep your hand steady boy, heed no attention to the blood stains and bruises on your body, just keep throwing those stones. A cut forms on you again as you throw the second..the third, fourth,fifth..screaming; you reach down and take a handful of mud and stones, tossing it violently along with the rest. More cuts appear.
Each stone is a mistake you’ve made, now look at you boy, ugly and covered in scars. Who are you.